What would Michael think about all of this?
Oh my, it really has been a crazy month on the Michael Jackson front since I’ve been away:
Arnold Klein and Jason Pfeiffer have been busy talking about Michael’s sexuality and are now apparently receiving death threats for it. Liz Taylor stepped in and bashed Arnold via twitter and made a dig at Debbie Rowe. It’s all getting a bit out of hand. The FBI has been involved now and the pair are under “police protection”. My oh my…..when will this craziness ever end? You can see their twitattack here and here.
According to the UK’s Daily Star today, Michael’s children are far from happy with Dr Klein. They’ve heard about the rumours and they want nothing more to do with him now. I must admit that I’m hardly surprised about this. It’s such a shame that they had to find out about this. You can read about it here.
On the subject of Michael’s children – the videos on YouTube. I must confess that it was nice to see that they are relatively happy and just doing their thing like regular kids their age. But I know that Michael would not have wanted these videos to be circulating around the internet.
The question is… how did they get out there? Was a computer hacked or was it one of the kids being a kid and just goofing around? Both possibilities are plausible but I do hope that the kids put them up themselves. It is mortifying to think that someone could have sunk so low as to hack into a computer just to get photos of Michael’s children.
Randy Jackson’s tweets are worrying and confusing me lately. He expressed concern about the MJ tribute in Rome on 25th June and had a dig at Brian Oxman. I don’t know what to make of it and am not sure how called for it was. I wish people would communicate with each other directly rather than using social networking sites to pass messages across. All I know about the matter is that Brian Oxman works for Joe Jackson and Joe Jackson is happy with what Brian is doing. He said so himself in an interview aired on Ustream. Click here to watch it.
Conrad Murray seems to be flavour of the month at TMZ. Some other news websites are now hailing him a hero for rescuing a damsel in distress. Well, actually it was a woman who says she “fainted for half an hour” on a plane that Conrad Murray just happened to be on. Does this act of “selflessness” get him off the hook? Are the public this fickle? Not by a long shot!
On a much more positive note, Michael has had a sun shower at forest Lawn thanks to Lisa Marie Presley. The pictures of the sunflowers look just divine. Thank God for small mercies, well done LMP!!
What do you guys make of all of this?
May 16, 2010 at 12:16 pm
Susan
My English is not goed. I treath in Spanish.
Nunca conoci a Michael, pero si algo creo es que Elizabeth sigue precisamente lo que MJ de ella y de sus amigos espero: LEALTAD. Uno no habla de la vida intima de los amigos. MJ era una persona que cuidaba con celo su intimidad, Y haya o no sido MJ homo eso no le importa a nadie mas que a el.
Espero que a Klein se le disminuya la clientela. Porque como medico ya dio muestras de que no es capaz de guardar un secreto profesional. Como amigo ya mostro el cobre. Me indigna que no piense en los hijos de MJ que tarde o temprano se daran cuenta que ellos y su padre estuvieron rodeados de una cantidad de porquerias.
Y en cuanto a Murray. Increible ahora es un heroe?!!
Esto aqui no se acaba
Un saludo
May 16, 2010 at 12:17 pm
Se me olvidaba:
FLORES MUCHAS FLORES PARA NUESTRO REY…
LO AMAREMOS HASTA EL ULTIMO RESPIRO!
May 16, 2010 at 3:01 pm
The episode with woman save and murray it is fake!Stupid “movie”!”They” want save KILLER murray!FUCK THEY!
May 16, 2010 at 3:04 pm
I DON’T BELIVE THIS SHIT WITH MURRAY “THE HERO”! DAMN YOU MURRAY AND YOUR COMPLICES
May 16, 2010 at 8:09 pm
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May 16, 2010 at 9:47 pm
I believe that the kids probably are upset with Klein but I don’t know if I would believe word for word what the Daily Star says. That line about the kids being raised extremly religous kinda through me off guard alittle. I know that Michael probably took them to church and what not but I don’t think they were raised as stricly as Michael was. Maybe now though if they are attending church more, they are probably becoming more strictly religous. I don’t what in the world Arnie or Jason was thinking saying such a thing. Whether this article in the Daily Star is true or not, spreading rumors about someones sexuality after they passed is about as low as you can go. This whole thing is crazy.
However,I agree on a more postive not, I was so grateful to LMP to post in myspace about the sunflowers. While I have had some issues with things she’s said in the past about MJ I believe that she loved him, and I think she will do her best to honor his memory whenever the opportunity present itself like she already done twice now with her myspace blog.
May 16, 2010 at 11:02 pm
Well! Earlier this month, I gave my opinion on the pair that is now under FBI protection. So we won’t go back there. About Liz’s comment, she obviously has a sense of humour, turning Klein into a bit of a pimp. Makes me smile. I do read between the lines though. Nice to know her opinion. I’d love to know what Diana Ross thinks of all that has happened so far.
Randy? Hum. I’m a bit confused. Reaching out through Twitter maybe. Sign of loneliness or escapism from his circle of life. Who knows?
Regarding the leaked videos, sadly I did not get to see them. I think they were removed before I got to check them out. Would have loved to see these children have a bit of a normal life. I think about them everyday probably as much as I think about their dad. In today’s world, these children will not be able to remain completely sheltered for much longer. 2 of them are teenagers, and emotinnaly at a fragile point in their development, and with their identity ( being michael’s kids) I think that the Jackson family in in for a bit of a bumpy ride. But please God it can and will remain a family affair only. The kids probably did put the videos online not understanding their impact. It is a pity that it is so hard to have access to Celebrities, because I would love to know LMP’s opinion on Michael’s children future. She, of most people know what it feels like to be in their shoes. and she had her mum! Would she have any advice for Katherine, to make sure that they go through teenage years as smoothly as possible. It was great of her to tell the fans about the flowers. Susan, do the kids know of her? Do they know that she was their daddy first wife? Has she any contact with them?
All in all, I cannot help but think about Katherine Jackson in all of this. At her age, that is a lot of pressure and stress to be under, on top of having to raise 3 extremely High Profile children who have lost the only parent they’ve ever known, and having to deal with losing her baby. Because no matter how old you are, you are always your parents baby. She must be made of steel. She needs a break, and needs to be left in peace to deal with her load.
As for Mike! What would he think of it? Well I think that after what he went through, none of this ringmaroll would surprise him. He surely is saddened that now, the people he loved and trusted the most, ie. His mum and his kids are on the receiving end of the whole schebang!
On this note, Bonne Nuit!
May 17, 2010 at 9:59 am
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May 18, 2010 at 2:26 am
First, there is a fan organization set up for MJ that makes sure MJ resting place receives flowers often. And this happen before LMP try to put us the fans on blast.
Elizabeth Taylor always had MJ’s back. She was one of his dearest fans and stood by him when the world and his friends dismissed hilm. She was the one that checked him into rehab during the 90s during the first allegations. She was the one that made sure he ate, when MJ wouldn’t eat, he admitted that Liz force fed him. She was the one that held him down in the media, And most importantly, she was the one friend that said that she would rather remember him in private,instead of going to what she believed the spectacle of the memorial. She wanted to mourned hijm in private. As far as I’m concerned, Elizabeth was a RYDE TO DIE CHICK. SHE HELD MJ DOWN AND CONTINUES TO DO SO. hOW DARE ANYONE TRY TO TARNISH HER DEAR FRIEND MICHAEL, BY CLAIMING SOMETHING THAT MJ FOUGHT HIS WHOLE LIFE TO DENY, SOMETHING THAT CAUSE HIM RIDICULE AND PAIN. AS , FAR AS I’M CONCERNED, LIZ HELD HER TOGUE, LONGER THAN I THOUGHT. CUZ LADY LIZ, IS KNOWN FOR BEING OUT-SPOKEN. AND ANYONE THAT SAYS THAT LESTER, OR KLIEIN WAS MISUNDERSTOOD, OR ONLY DID THAT TO GET THE JACKSONS ATTENTION, SHOULD FALL BACK. IN THE U.S. WHEN YOU SLANDER SOMEONE’S NAME, IT’S NOT TAKEN OUT OF CONTEXT. AND ARNIE KLIEIN IS WRONG AND THAT IS WHY MJ BODYGUARDS PUT THE LIAR NURSE ON BLAST. A TRUE FRIEND WOULD HAVE NEVER EVER MADE ANY NEGATIVE COMMENTS ABOUT MJ OR HIS CHILDREN. I’M NOT A FRIEND OR FAMILY OF MJ BUT IF I WAS, I WOULDN’T HAVE SOLD HIM OUT TO THE PRESS, WITH THE EXCUSE IT’S ALL FOR LOVE FOR HIM.
September 18, 2010 at 4:28 pm
lmp always came off as an overrated snob- as if mj fans wouldn’t have given him flowers WITHOUT her help. smh. it was a nice gesture, but i dotn buy it for a second. when mj was ALIVE, she trashed him at every chance she got. now he’s dead, and she wants to say he was a good person, that he really loved her. how fake. how PHONY. theres a saying i always said ” if you didnt bring me flowers when i was alive, dont bring em to me when im dead”. lisa, keep your dirty, weeded flowers. fans already bought him some.
May 18, 2010 at 2:35 am
MJ protected his children but he was an extremist. When he was alive those kids had normal lifes. Jermaine admitted this last year. So, the children hanging out, was nothing new. The kids would spend summers with Paris Hilton’s mom.
And for the record, MJ never wanted the kids to wear masks her veils, it was Debbie Rowe, that wanted it. There was a kidnapping attempt , and she wanted the kids to be protected.She admitted this on that bashir mess documentary, And Kai Chase and Teddy Riley, and MJ other friends talked about how normal the kids are. Even the family that MJ stayed at their house in D.C. talked about how normal they were. People get me, trying to analyze MJ children like MJ had them in a bubble. The videos are cute, Paris has Janet down to a tee. Cute video. It’s not my place to say rather it’s wrong or not because for all we know the kids could have put them on Youtube themselves.
May 18, 2010 at 5:57 am
“Conrad Murray seems to be flavour of the month at TMZ. Some other news websites are now hailing him a hero for rescuing a damsel in distress. Well, actually it was a woman who says she “fainted for half an hour” on a plane that Conrad Murray just happened to be on”
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Which is basically like a plumber making headlines for
having fixed a faucet. Isn’t it?
May 18, 2010 at 3:41 pm
Diana Ross Tribute To MJ
May 21, 2010 at 10:37 pm
It really seems like any time Conrad Murray is in the press, the stories fit the perfect mold of calculated publicity. Maybe it’s “possible” this woman was in distress, but after seeing the video on TMZ of him helping this woman, it just seems contrived to me. The shots, the angles, etc. Would really like to know who supplied the footage to TMZ, because it does not seem like a random passenger video. Also, Joe Jackson and Brian Oxman were on a radio show recently….the Los Angeles Civil Rights Association on Ustream Radio (http://www.ustream.tv/channel/lacraspeaksout/v3). Mr. Oxman stated repeatedly that surveillance footage from Michael’s Beverly Hills home the day he died, have never been located. He also states that money from the home was completely missing that day. Geraldine Hughes who wrote “Redemption for Michael Jackson” was also on the show and says that she has information (did not disclose from where), that Dr. Murray actually left the premises while Michael was under—-and went to be with a call girl, while Joe Jackson nodded his head.
They truly believe that there is/was a conspiracy and the media and investigators are not fact-finding and seeking out loopholes in evidential findings as they should be.
May 21, 2010 at 10:43 pm
Just wanted to clarify: Joe Jackson was nodding his head in agreement to Geraldine Hughe’s statements on the show. The way I wrote it before, sounds like he was in approval of Conrad leaving. Sorry
May 21, 2010 at 11:37 pm
Dear Susan,
I have 2 quick questions. Would love if you could reply. Actually 3 questions.
1/ have you taken part in the Popumentary by David Gest?
2/ what do you think of Randy trying to get access to Michael’s grave on the anniversary?
3/ what’s your opinion on the forthcoming book “in defense of the King”?
Thank you for sharing your opinion.
May 27, 2010 at 4:27 am
Thanks for your post
May 30, 2010 at 7:08 am
Hi Susan!
I stumbled across your blog on recommendation from another MJ friend. It’s great! I’ve spent hours on here reading all your past posts and comments. Very interesting. I love hearing you tell us about MJ the person. What a relief! There’s too much on tv about MJ’s struggles only. I do have a couple of questions if you please. First, did you know the bodyguards that were on tv talking about MJ a couple of months ago? What do you think of them? Also, did you know MJ’s female companion well? How did you find out about her? Did MJ talk to you about his love life past/present? Thanks so much!!!!!
June 4, 2010 at 2:33 pm
Dear Susan,
Where are you?
June 4, 2010 at 3:03 pm
Hi Mary,
I have been super busy lately. I’m in Portugal at the moment.
Susan
June 4, 2010 at 7:37 pm
Dear Susan,
Thank you for your reply.
We are waiting for your return.
Best regards,
Mary
June 6, 2010 at 4:49 pm
Hi Susan,
I hope you are having a great time in portugal. I saw this article online and was a little agast by the audacity of some people…assuming its true. Thought I would share it with you all. It’s a little long…sorry about that. It is taken from a newspostonline article. I’ll put the link at the end.
“…Michael left the custody of his three children to his mother Katherine Jackson. Katherine now might be facing some legal troubles after she asked her four grandchildren and their mother one of Alejandra Jackson to leave the Jackson estate. Alejandra and her children were staying with the matriarch of the family and Michael Jackson’s three children in Encino.
Katherine has asked Alejandra to move to a nearby condo with her kids, that is owned by the Jackson family and it has irked her. The decision of Katherine’s comes after one of her grandchildren; Jaafar ordered a stun gun online and was playing with it, in the house. It has resulted in a visit from the L.A County Department of Children and Family Service and investigation by them. Katherine hence has told Alejandra that she has her hands full with Michael’s three children and cannot manage four other.
Alejandra hence has hired Trope 7 Trope one of the powerful law firms, who will negotiate a separation deal. This is not the first time the lady has lawyered up against the Jackson family; she has gone after Jermaine after he failed to pay the child support. Alejandra has a colourful history with the Jackson family; she has two sons Jaafar and Jermajesty with Jeramine and two other children Donte and Randy Jr. are fathered by Randy.
Alejandra wants assurance that financially her family will be taken care of after she moves from the house. She might also challenge the move or negotiate it and may land up in a better palace than the condo that’s offered to her with her four children and get the financial support too. Alejandra is to move from the house after Katherine returns from Indiana, that is she has time till June 10…”
Source: http://www.newspostonline.com/entertainment/michael-jackson-family-lawyering-up-2010060683391
June 8, 2010 at 7:36 am
Susan:
Very good time in Portugal!!!
We are waiting for your return!
June 16, 2010 at 3:38 pm
According to them MJ is alive and wrote the “Thank You” note for the flowershop guy from Lisa Marie Presley (reported by TMZ not long ago).
Have a read:
http://www.facebook.com/topic.php?uid=199268739413&topic=15143
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I post anonymus for some reason. So please accept that — thanx.
July 17, 2010 at 11:19 am
Romania,Bucharest
by CAMELIA CONSTANTIN
VAGRANT CHILD
A cold, void night lays down on Earth, making the frightful rumble of the wind sound like thunder strikes. Not a single person in the street…just a vagrant, ragged child, shuddering and trembling with
fear. He can hardly walk, feeble and hungry, banished by all the people
in his way.
He knocks at the doors hoping to get shelter or mercy. Some people open and offer him some water or a loaf
of bread, some others just chase him away.
He eventually sits down on the threshold of a house, weary and
all in tears. His teeth chatter with cold and the fear that the shadows of the night have
turned into monsters hunting for him.
‘Who are you?’ a man who
seems to have come out of nowhere, asks the little boy.
The child fearfully shrugs his shoulders, his eyes sparkling with fever:
‘I have no answer to that’, he whispers…
‘Where do you live?’ ‘Don’t you have parents to take care of you?’
The little boy shakes his head, ‘I have no parents, no home…nothing.’
‘Of course you do’.
The child, with his eyes widely open, looks above towards the voice he can hear. The shininess
reflected by that man is almost blinding him. He backs away, frightened,
closer to the wall in his back.
‘Don’t be afraid, I am just someone to
protect you, your guardian
angel’
The angel points to the way he should walk, saying: ‘That is the way to your home’. The little boy turns around to face the
angel and thank him, but… there’s no one there, he has vanished!
Now, he no longer feels cold or hunger, fear or pain. He starts running on the path he has been shown until he gets to a
giant, metal gate. He notices, the beautiful flowers and the green
grass along the walls while he hesitatingly pushes the heavy gate and
steps in, faltering but hopeful- he’s finally home!
He enters and then he remains still- instead of the warm, family
place he has expected to see, he finds himself surrounded by saddening
scenery: ruins, darkness, a lifeless garden with its flowers faded… a
terrifying nightmare.
The little boy falls down on his knees shedding bitter tears. He lays his
forehead on the cold pavement/ ground, his feeble body shivering with so
much pain.
Too many trials and tribulations after having wandered for so long.
‘What are you doing here?’ The child stands up, more confidently now.
He notices a grey-haired old man standing propped up on
a staff. ‘This is where I live. Who are you?’
the old man continues.
The boy answers staring into the old man’s eyes: ‘I am Peter Pan and I am back home.’
‘It’s too late; the very heart of your home is no longer here’.
The child says nodding ‘I don’t believe you, who are you?’
‘I am TIME’… ‘Don’t let the Peter Pan in your heart die. In every tear
Michael has shed there is one of us and this is why these tears are so
significant to God when He judges the ones guilty of his death.
I am Peter Pan …YOU are Peter Pan…WE are Peter Pan… TRANSLATE IN ENGLISH-ADRIANA FULEA
July 24, 2010 at 8:27 pm
Wow it’s so quiet here and it has been for the last few months. I remember when this blog was booming and I came here everyday to see new information or ask questions. Man I miss you guys.
Anyways Susan I have a question for you. I’m not sure if I already asked or not but did MJ ever talk to you abut the rumors that went around a few years ago when it was reported that he had converted to Islam. I know Jermaine has talked about it and from an interview I saw after MJ’s death Jermaine wishes that his brother would have actually embraced it but he never did. Anyways did Mike ever talk to you about Islam? What was his take on it?
August 3, 2010 at 7:25 pm
The bodyguards have stated that they knew where MJ stood religiously and would discuss it in the book. But, they did say that he read his bible daily.
August 7, 2010 at 3:35 am
Oh that’s lovely! I don’t think he was Muslim because Jermaine has stated after his death that he WISHED MJ had embraced Islam. He said he thought that MJ was on the verge of doing so. And MJ had his people deny the Islam conversion rumors. You know why I think MJ never talked about his faith in the open? I think he didn’t want to turn fans away because he had a large number of fans from every faith. He had Christian ones, Muslim ones etc. Honestly as long as you never deny your faith I don’t feel like you have to talk about it. God knows what’s in your heart.
But I will say that I would love MJ no matter what religion he was.
August 11, 2010 at 3:38 pm
Oh really? That’s makes me feel good inside LOL. They way Jermaine said it it was like he had desperately hoped MJ would be Muslim but never did. When the rumors came out MJ’s people denied the conversion. I don’t know MJ personally but I don’t think MJ would ever deny his faith. He might not talk about it openly cause he was private and faith is between you and God anyway but he woldn’t have someone deny what he was. well at least I think so. I wonder why MJ’s security was all Muslim though? I mean it doesn’t really matter either way. Hm he might have still been a Jehovah’s Witness. He celebrated christmas and all that though. Idk…who knows. Still love him though *wink*
August 12, 2010 at 9:00 pm
Who is Uri Geller to MJ? Like were the friend or something? I know Uri Geller is like a magician or something.
August 15, 2010 at 3:00 pm
Hope you’re having a great summer Susan, and hope to read from you again soon
October 16, 2010 at 6:36 am
Truthfully and sincerely, I think that MJ would not be happy with all those who backstabbed him period. In my honest opinion of him, he was one of the greatest artists to have walked the face of this earth. He was well-loved by so many but in all sincerity he needed to have watched himself with certain people. From the time he became a celebrity, he needed to have had the right people around him.
I do believe he could have lived past the age of 50, but he did not need to do alot period. Just focus on clearing things up which he wanted to do after the tour and move on with his life. In my opinion, even if Michael had been surrounded by the right people had a good image and everything I believe by him being a man of color and owning the music that he had he still would have faced alot of jealously and opposition. What I do not like and I am speaking as an African-American when his trial was over not too many people stood up for him. Especially some people of color. My question Susan and this is true, where were many of the Motown artists? Okay, the founder said last year that Michael was more than the King of Pop he was the greatest entertainer to live.
If Rev. Sharpton has a national black music forum, alot of people are going to have to answer for alot. Redemption by Geraldine Hughes is a factual book that states that in 1993 it was a setup and last year the tape was found on youtube of Evan Chandler and what he did. I do understand that the former prosecutor in Santa Barbara did some dirty deeds and Mr. William Wagener saw how evidence was falsified and now he wants to get justice for MJ.
I grew up listening to Michael post-Motown days because I was born after the Jackson 5 entered the music scene. I listen to his music in the 1980′s my early childhood days. He sang songs about impacting humanity yet when he needed many people they should have reached out to him. As an African-American, I would like to question even those in the black faith community and why many of them did not think enough of Michael to reach out to him. I am sure that he was hurt after the trial. He helped so many people around this world, opened Neverland to sick and underpriviledged children, pastors, church, inner-city schools etc. Yet, I would like to have seen the gospel music community reach out to him.
I believe it would have helped him to have known five years ago that someone cared. They will have to answer for that. Andre Crouch to me is the only one who cared about Michael Crouch and his sister are well-known in the field of black gospel music and they would have liked it if alot of their colleagues had done their job for Michael. I couldn’t have agreed more.
November 11, 2010 at 12:50 am
Hello
November 11, 2010 at 12:51 am
Fall is one of my favorite seasons because of its diversity – its colors
November 11, 2010 at 1:10 am
Fall is one of my favorite seasons because of its diversity – its colors; the warm hues dressed in red, the sunlit orange supreme, the daffodil dance of greenly lit mardi gras trees showing off in fashion and delight. Fall can also be cold, numbing, pulling-your sweater-close to your vest type of of weather. It can be crisp an direct, challenging and serene. All at once – a season in our lives. A season of change.
I don’t know how quite to verse this. So much has been written of Michael Joseph. So many tabloids, so many decadent rumour and sensationalized writ. It is far and few between that one can decipher even a decibel of clarity in the maddening tome of mudslinging journalism and the thirty second senseless sound bite.
Well, this is breaking news…
Michael was fully a man. A gentle genius and possibly one of the most misunderstood prodigies ever to grace our planet Earth.
His mission was simple, almost childlike in nature – to heal the world – to heal our children. To him, I sincerely believe, they were one and the same. Love was his formula. Love for all things, all peoples, all races, all cultures and creeds. And no one was excluded. To Michael it didn’t matter if you were black or if you were white…if you”were” – you had a right to be loved. Period.
It is to this man, the one so misunderstood, that I pay a simple homage – an offering of respect and genuine admiration.
He loved deeply and yes he loved passionately…
And yes I knew him…
Not in the biblical sense of the word to “know”. Now, I have never touched Michael Jackson, been in his prescence, caressed his face, felt his lips brush mine or been enveloped in his embrace – governed by his love. Only a chosen few held that honor…Lisa Marie for one, Debbie Rowe for the other, and other women, who for now, simply choose – not to come forward. Who seek not fame or aggrandizement and simply treasured the warmth of Michael’s prescence and love.
Yet…I have “touched” Michael Jackson…
For if two souls can touch…Ours did. He touched mine.
And I touched his…
Simply put ours was a “romantic friendship of hearts and minds” and devoid of camera lights and sensational media grist…it blossomed and grew and became a brightly lit continuium of love and deep respect.
Somehow, he managed in that wondrously adept manner of his to somehow have me tucked – intricately and intimately within the folded vestiges of his life – as his fan, his love
and most of all…his friend…
For it would take “friendship” of a special kind to hold hands with undoubtedly the most famous man on the planet, see him through two marriages and three kids and love him still…and he with me.
Listen, if you don’t believe me…you don’t have to…
the heart never lies
and every artist sings his soul
and Michael Joseph song his
save for Cry and Privacy – his song to the Lady Diana, the rest of Invincible is his response and “love letter” to me
In response to the many love letters, tapes, songs that I had sent him
And when I did walk away, he never let go…
You will find me hidden in the music trounced halls of PYT 2008, You wanna be starting something 2008, For All Time and The Girl Is Mine
I am in “Breaking News” as well
PYT 2008….”she came inside my prima donna…but Kim is my heavenly prize”
It is my voice that you hear on You Rock My Word…. and MJ singing “You Kim and me….”
My name…is Kim Maria ….
November 11, 2010 at 1:40 am
If you will listen carefully to the movie “This Is It” you will hear him sing..”Why Kim Maria, why you leave” right before he sings Human nature and Kenny Ortega asks him ” who is this…we never produced her?” He mentions my name in the introduction to “the way you make me feel” when he whisper – shouts “kim” and he speaks my name in the end, along with Kenny Ortega, Travis Payne…. Kenny says, “…what he sang, he sang for Kim Maria”…when they were holding hands…and in billie jean…”i love kim, i need kim…” the rest, well is private (smile)…he also plays, Michael was so playful with me… Kenny says…”MJ air with Kim Maria”, Travis speaks….and then Michael speaks…”I love …Kim Maria” this is how we used to “play” for years…..I have known MJ this way starting in 1993…he would use the “media” as a way to communicate with me and mention my name and I would in turn write him, or tape him. After I wrote him my first letter in 1993 I also sent a picture of my family, after the Oprah interview, it was then that he “sent” a picture back with him and his animals and MJ opening up his home to Harry Benson, for the first time. I wrote seven letters and stopped. He then wore the number 7 at the Jackson Family honors. And when he married Lisa Marie and broke my heart….(smile)…and for the record their marriage was NEVER a sham….he showed me he loved me still, although he chose a woman that he loved, that did not happen to be me…the song “you are not alone” was his gift to me…when he knew he had broken my heart, by choosing another. Did you ever wonder why MJ wrote such a song of love lost…when he was newly married. Randy Taborelli was right…when Michael chose the woman he would love and have children with, there is only one woman at that time he desired to have that honor and that woman was Lisa Marie. But love not realized, is love no less…We still loved each other, respected each other and tried to “communicate” with each other. In history in the song “They don’t care about us” he speaks my name…Kim Maria, again and again. And at the end of the song he says “Talk Kim Maria”…. For some reason, neither one of us, wanted to cut ties completely with one another, even though we walked our separate ways…we longed to hold onto each other. And when I did walk away…and I did….let it be known, that it was NEVER for the allegations that surrounded him or for the relentless press that had persecuted him…it was that I, like Lisa, was trying to move on with my life…but I knew that if he ever put out another album, I would listen…and fall in love all over again. I stopped writing Michael Joseph in 2004 and instead fell deeply in love with my God and My King. My only regret is that I did not have the opportunity to tell him, what I now tell you, how much I love him and how deeply I do. But “Breaking news was a comfort to me…listening to him sing “Breaking news…your breaking news…Kim Maria…” that was in 2007….D
Do you remember the beginning of This Is It, when he sings your love is magical…that’s how I feel… he softly says…”kim maria”, but there are worlds and worlds to tell you…and he looks down, softly …gently….he speaks my name…”kim”…i love you
why do i write now?
because something deep inside me
because i exist
because others know me as well
from Kenny Ortega
to Teddy Riley
to Janet and the Jackson family
and yes even Lisa Marie
for the greatest thing we had in common was him
and we both deeply loved him…
one as his wife, his lover
the other as his fan….his friend
Lisa Marie states in her interview that she feels he tried no harder with any other female than her
to which i must humbly disagree
for he tried hard….
really hard with me…
and now…
Michael Joseph…this …is for you
I dreamed of you
a few days after you had passed
and you were sitting in a den like library filled with books
and you were smiling
smiling that wonderfully brilliant smile
as you looked at me
and you were happy
so happy…
i will be in heaven with kim…he says in the outtakes on this is it
and when he complains of the sound to kenny he points upward and says
i will be in heaven with kim or i will be with kim in heaven….
yes michael joseph…i will be with you in heaven
and the love we shared, never realized on earth
like kathy and her heathcliff
like romeo and his juliet
like tony and his maria
will blossom into something greater and more pure than we have ever known
Michael darling….see you…
see you darling…
see you in the morning…
With all my love….
Kim Maria
November 11, 2010 at 1:43 am
Good night Susan and fellow friends…
and thank you for listening…
Kim Maria
November 12, 2010 at 12:49 am
Fall is one of my favorite seasons because of its diversity – its colors; the warm hues dressed in red, the sunlit orange supreme, the daffodil dance of greenly lit mardi gras trees showing off in fashion and delight. Fall can also be cold, numbing, pulling-your-sweater-close to your vest type of weather. It can be crisp and direct, challenging and serene. All at once – a season in our lives. A season of change.
I don’t know how quite to verse this. So much has been written of Michael Joseph. So many tabloids, so many decadent rumor and sensationalized writ. It is far and few between that one can decipher even a decibel of clarity in the maddening tome of mudslinging journalism and the thirty second senseless sound bite.
Well this is breaking news…
Michael was fully man. A gentle genius and possibly one of the most misunderstood prodigies ever to grace planet Earth.
His mission was simple, almost childlike in nature – to heal the world – to heal our children. To him, I sincerely believe, they were one and the same. Love was his formula. Love for all things, all peoples, all races, all cultures and creeds. And no noe was excluded. To Michael it didn’t matter if you were black or if you were white…if you “were” – you had a right to be loved. Period.
It is to this man, the one so misunderstood, that I pay a simple homage – an offering of respect and genuine admiration.
He loved deeply and yes he loved passionately…
And yes I knew him…
Not in the biblical sense of the word to “know”. Now, I have never touched Michael Jackson, been in his presence, caressed his face, felt his lips brush mine or been enveloped in his embrace – governed by his love. Only a chosen feew held that honor…Lisa Marie for one, Debbie Rowe for the other, and other women, who for now, simply choose – not to come forward. Who seek not fame or aggrandizement and simply treasured the warmth of Michael’s presence and love.
Yet…I have “touched” Michael Jackson…
For if two souls can touch…Ours did. He touched mine.
And I touched his…
Simply put ours was a “romantic friendship of hearts and minds” and devoid of camera lights and sensational media grist…it blossomed and grew and became a brightly lit continuium of love and deep respect.
Somehow he managed in that wondrously adept manner of his to somehow have me tucked – intricately and intimately within the folded vestiges of his life – as his fan, his love
and most of all…his friend…
For it would take “friendship” of a special kind to hold hands with undoubtedly the most famous man on the planet, see him through two marriages and three kids and love him still…and he with me.
Listen, if you don’t believe me…you don’t have to…
listen…to Michael’s music
the heart never lies
and every artist sings his soul
and Michael Joseph sung his
save for the song “Cry” and “Privacy” his missive mentioned The Lady Diana, the rest of Invincible is his response…
and “love letter” to me
In response to the many love letters, tapes, and songs that I had sent him
And when I did “walk away”, he never let go…
You will find me hidden in the music trounced halls of PYT 2008, You wanna be starting something 2008, For All Time and The Girl Is Mine
I am in Breaking News as well…
November 12, 2010 at 12:55 am
PYT 2008…”she came inside my prima donna…but Kim is my heavenly prize:
It is my voice that you hear on You Rock My World and MJ singing…”You Kim and me…”
My name is Kim Maria
November 12, 2010 at 12:59 am
There is one correction I do have to make though…Remember when I spoke of the song “You Are Not Alone” ? Michael did not write this song, but he commissioned someone to write this song for him. R. Kelly…Remember history is His Story….so the phrase should have been…
Did you ever wonder why MJ had a song written for him of love lost…when he was newly married?
I am a part of MJ’s His Story
November 25, 2010 at 12:57 am
I’m reading Leonard Rowe’s book.
November 27, 2010 at 2:15 pm
Wow. There is many crazy people in the world.
Now I understand why Susan gave up talking with us.
God bless you Susan.
January 9, 2011 at 11:08 am
Happy New Year, Susan.
April 28, 2011 at 11:38 pm
Hello Susan, Where have you gone? I do miss your blog. Hope that you are doing well~